This is one of the best games that I have ever played. Honestly was not what I was expecting. It sucked me in and I can't wait for the next chapter. What program did you use to make the characters and scenes? It looks great
heh, that's a bold statement to say it's one of the best games but thank you and I appreciate it. I use Daz3D for the art stuff. It's a free program but the assets cost. We've also used Blender to create some of the environments and movies
So I’m just gonna cut straight to the chase and say that this VN wasn’t what I was expecting when I originally downloaded it. I went in blind thinking that I was going to play another point and click erotica visual novel with some saucy scenes and be able to call it a day, but to say I was pleasantly surprised with the depth and emotional nature of the story would be a gross understatement.
I don’t really identify as a writer, don’t have the discipline despite having the imagination, but I’m generally a pretty hard person to please in terms of character development and character arcs, but what you’ve done with Zack and Braden’s story is pretty magical. I feel like the slowed pace of the novel adds a lot of weight to your narrative giving the reader time to really sit in their choices (which is probably why other commenters had such a visceral reaction to the pervy route in chapter 9 lmao). It’s not just some race to get to the saucier parts of the story (which admittedly are very much there and very enjoyable) or to the next H scene. Obviously no disrespect to VNs like that, it’s just refreshing to see a tender story of identity, friendship, and found family really be explored with this sense of solemnity and respect.
I’m hooked pretty heavily and even joined up on your Patreon so I could follow development more closely so I won’t be behind on how Zack and Braden’s relationship continues to grow and blossom. Not gonna lie though I love slow burn fluff and I’m really hoping to get to see the catharsis of Braden calling Zack his boyfriend at some point!
Heh, chapter 9 turned out to be one of my favs. I've been worried about that, fearing I'd hit the apex of the story much earlier--especially given how much I liked chapter 8 so I was honestly surprised how happy I was with it.
I'll also say thanks for jumping onboard for the Patreon support. That really does help and there's honestly a lot more content over there with some behind the scenes as well as more of the adult stuff if you're into that sorta thing. Thanks a lot of the warm words and for just saying that the story moved when when you identify as a tough critic; comments like that mean a lot to me
I'm gonna try and release an official android build before long. it's on my list, i'm just spending more time writing the next update and stuff versus those things but I'd like to have the next update on android
I feel like I'd want to do a more in-depth review after the story's been released in its entirety, but, for now, after two weeks of being unable to get this game out of my head, I want to say thank you.
Thank you for the long hours, stress, and effort you've put into this game. Thank you for creating something equal parts beautiful, magical, and so damn real. Thank you for putting into visuals the honest struggles that countless people are/have been dealing with on a regular basis, especially as a free download. Thank you for the balance of excitement, apprehension, and doubt throughout the meticulously-paced story that make those moments of payoff so much more worth it. Thank you for creating a compelling and authentic cast of characters, from their dialogue to their actions and thoughts, flaws and all. Thank you for introducing more genuine love in a market/world saturated with superficial bursts of lust.
And lastly, thank you for inspiring a fire of emotions (tears and all) within me that I've not felt in a long while, for crafting something that I've been craving out of media for years, and for showing me that I want to contribute to the world in a similar way.
I hope that the rest of development goes smoothly, and I'm so looking forward to what you have in store!
This was a really sincere post and I really appreciated it. Made me smile so I'm going to return your list of "thank you's" by saying thank you for taking the time to be thoughtful and just checking in about it. two weeks is a long time to be quasi-haunted by a game so I'm going to take that as a compliment, especially for this genre. Things are progressing and I hope the next installment lives up to the hype. This post meant a lot so thanks again. seriously <3
Definitely intended it to be a compliment! The more a game consumes my life, the better it is, and the glow still hasn't faded, haha. So the least I could do was share how much of an impact it's made. <3
no spoilers but hopefully things in the story will work out appropriately (i know, super lame answer). It's up to the characters more than it is me. I lost control of this thing a long time ago
Like Moggie there, I too made an accout to comment here.
This was probably the coolest thing I have ever downloaded. I went through it in both directions. It is so well thought out. The Characters are utterly Amazing!...The mix of personality in the entire story is utterly incredible. Like Zack & Barden, I am not really sure what I am. I despise labels, I think they are the problem & not the solution. I am just not one to advertise. But I would give anything to find a Braden in my life. But Jesus, this was a story that I believe every human being needs to not only see, but need to live. I am pretty old at this point. Much of life behind me. But Wow, Just Wow. What a story. Please keep me updated on future releases, if they are half as good as this story, You got me. Bravo, AWESOME JOB & Best of luck to you. Please keep this going. The world needs Zack, Braden, Mikile, Ash & even Cody. I will come back to this story, often. Sorry I don't wish to look at it as a game, but a truly interactive book. And a Damned Good one, on par with Excellence.
Hey Dave, thanks for the kind words. I'm glad you were able to vibe with this on an emotional level because that really is the intention here. I will say that I give less update news on here becuase it's too many sites to manage but I do put the information out on the Patreon. That's mostly for people that sub over there but you can also check our Discord if you use that. Joining that is free and you can talk to us directly and I usually end up spilling the beans on update stuff anyway because I'm terrible like that. I'm hoping for an update soon. it's been forever and I ran into sooo many problems (mostly real life stuff and my own ambition) but I'm back on track again now so stay tuned. I post it here about 3 weeks after I release on Patreon (the Patreon release is based on donations to help pay the bills) but it will still be free
Thank You Aaryn for your response. Not only did I vibe with it. It bordered on a Life Altering Experience, that validated many of my own beliefs about the broader community & that they may not see, But they are a greater challenge to the direction of the " movement " than the general public. I could go into much greater detail, but I will save that for patreon or discord should I ever get the time to chat with you. I am not sure you even have any idea what you have unleashed with this story. It simply could not be any more perfect!.....This is so deep on so many levels, It is almost incomprehensible. I have simply not been able to get it out of my head. Again, Thank You, I do not think you even know, the impact this has had on me.
Sure thing. i'm glad it hit the spot for ya. a lot of that was hopefully intentional but I also like the way that a lot of people have personalized this more as a very adult learning experience, too. it's empowering to know that it hit its mark and is helping people <3
Hey, I made an account here just so I could comment! I’ve not been following this story for long, but I’ve blitzed through it. Ngl it’s made me horny, made me laugh, and made me cry. I identify with Zack so much, his inner monologues are stunning. I have a dissociative disorder so can barely concentrate most days, this story is the first thing in years that’s kept me outta my head for longer than a few minutes. I’m actually excited to not dissociate so I can keep reading! Literally for that I can’t thank you enough! I know that sounds sappy af!
Thanks again for making this... keep up the good work! <3
haha. glad you went through the trifecta of horny/laugh/cry. it's not usually the reaction you get from these types of games but i wanted to do something different. I'm also glad it's helping you work through your own challenges. I write it to work through mine so it's nice to see that benefit someone else <3
this game is really amazing, the characters and the plot i really wonder how anyone can do something so perfect, i'm so grateful for the story of the game... it's helping me to accept myself...
thanks for checking in. It's def far from perfect and I have a lot of plans to polish it up but I really appreciate you enjoying it so far. Honestly, I appreciate that it's helping you out even more, though. That means a lot just to hear it's helping someone else out there. Take your time. For some of us, that road to acceptance can be a long one
no worries at all. that's the great thing about translate. glad you like it. it's a nice upgrade from the one before and it's been on my list for a long time
okay I loved this game no joke I actually saw a guy play the parts of this game on pornhub…..I know shut up…… anyhow he was taking forever drawing it out and I just couldn’t resist to find out what would happen sooo I just downloaded the game myself and played all night cause I was that wrapped up into it anyhow I can’t wait till the next update do you know when it will be cause I can’t wait even though you said it will be the last chapter I just can’t wait it’s soooo good anyhow that’s it keep up the awesome amazing work!!!! Ahhhhh I can’t wait hopefully you say like in less than a week ha ha ha
haha. it'll def be more than a week. i ran into some problems early on and have made some life adjustments to compensate so i'm back on track again. I'm working 7 days a week on it right now to catch up. I'm planning on putting out a devlog on the patreon page as an update but it's getting closer. Just a ton of pics to do for the next one and a little more setup. I'm glad you liked it though, means a lot to me <3
I think that's something that we'll all have to wait on and see. there's so many things that could go right or wrong with how they're set up. no spoilers tho :p
omg I love this, it's the best visual novel I've ever played! It's awesome! When is the next update coming? And I saw one comment of you saying the next episode is the last one, but I wish it would be longer, I like it a lot, hoping there'll be more content than that, no pressure though
Ohh That sooo Bums me out. I can see so much to happen in this story. My imagination goes crazy thinking about how summer brake goes & next school year. How Ashley fairs. I really feel bad for him. Such a jerk & yet a Hero. I do hope, that after you get 10 done, you come back to this eventually. This is a must story for all. I am Sooooo Looking forward to 10 though. Albeit Bittersweet now......:(
hey I can’t wait for your next update I just finished the game i almost cryed at because of Ash did and how many more chapters do you think there will be I don’t want this game to end!!!
I do what you said and it happened the same. I have the carpet of the game but when I opened there is only the records of all the game but I can opened it normal. If not there is a way to download it on the mobile??
Also Windows has a built in software that will extract files too. In your downloads folder, if you left click on the file in the explorer window, you should see an "extract" highlighted up in the top of that window. If you click just under that you'll see it says "compressed folder tools". If you click that, you'll see "extract all" pop up.
the location shouldn't matter. what are you stuck on? Some people had problems starting the game because they didn't realize the folder is zipped. Not sure if that's where your problem is or not
All I can say is I wish so much I could have played this when I was a closeted youngster. It really is that impactful. I hope it will help many young people who haven't come out yet or are still discovering themselves in the often painful but also beautiful process of discovering who they are. Thank you for this game.
Jesus Christ...That's about all I can say after playing through this game in a day and a half. I feel like for any young person out there, this can serve as a reference that you are perfect the way you are and to not judge things before you experience them. It also serves as a guide to love yourself the way you are and to be forgiving with yourself when things don't go your way. This really captures a lot of the struggles of real life, coming to terms with your insecurities, trying to find out who you are, and deal with the social anxieties we all have. This VN single handedly made me create an account on here just to give you the props you deserve. This is right up there with Being A DIK for story telling and I am so glad to have come across both of them. As a bisexual man this speaks a lot to me and I felt myself sympathizing a lot with Zack and understanding a lot of his struggles. Every chapter I kept getting more invested and was dreading the time that I would hit the point of "To Be Continued"...I just couldn't stop playing because I was encapsulated by the story more and more. I am glad that things are finally starting to pick up and am dreading the wait to continue the story. This is by far the most tame Adult VN I have come across, but it's by far one of the best ones out there. I can tell you put a major emphasis on story telling and I can't tell you how much that's appreciated. Keep up the amazing work
First off, I'm sorry about the slow response here. I got behind and I'm sorta working backwards on replies. I really appreciate everything that you've said: your reactions, the fact that you made an account on here just to comment; things like this are amazing. I do want to specifically note that the game still checks boxes for the bi crew out there. Specifically with these types of games, you dont see that role used very often. While I don't want to overtly put labels into this game (mostly because people get so fucking extra about them that I was afraid they'd focus more on the label than the actual person behind them). I'm glad that you can relate here and it means a lot that you feel it's still applicable to the bi crew out there so thanks for letting me know that :)
I am not sure how long this comment of mine will be, but I really need to send this message to you.
I have always been a huge fan of deep and REAL stories in any kind of media. Things that feel fleshed out and truly meaningful always get me in all the right ways. And this game of yours did exactly that.
I will admit that I was simply perusing through several games for simple, mindless entertainment or something to itch my gay brain. I am simply speechless when it comes to this game.
I had no idea what to expect, but the premise hooked me pretty easily. From the moment I started playing, I could already tell that this game was special. I could not stop playing and literally had to force myself to take breaks. It was just so easy to become immersed into the story and truly invest in all of the characters and their relationships with one another. I have played many games, but this is SO up there with one of the most memorable, most heart-wrenching but emotionally gratifying games I have ever played. And it's not even done!
I cannot tell you how many times I cried. Everything felt so real and so heavy, but all in good ways.
I am probably being way too passionate about this but you should proud of yourself for creating such an amazing experience. I cannot thank you enough for the joy you have given me through this game. Not to get too into it, but I am going through a tough time, and as someone who is 20 years old, being able to live through such a beautiful experience with incredible characters has made the last week or so so worth the time I invested in this game.
Extreme and major kudos to you. Please take all the time and care you need to work on this because whatever you are doing is above and beyond. I am eagerly, yet patiently, waiting for the next continuation piece to this wonderful story. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
heh....nah....you're not being too passionate. I really appreciate this. I'm very passionate in writing it. It's such a vulnerable place that I have to go to write this so it's very meaningful for people to write long comments and have emotional reactions to it. I've cried writing some of the scenes so I'm glad that was passed along to you over the course of playing. I'm just as invested as you are <3
Please tell me an update will come out soon. I'm passionate about this game and I'm super curious to know how this story will end. Since already grateful, P.s: I love your work.
you can follow the patreon site here . Supporters there get the game on release. 3 weeks after release, i then post it there for free. I do post it here but it's a little further down on the priority list but it will eventually be posted here. You can also keep an eye on my twitter as I'll post something on there when the new version comes out as well as additional stuff regarding the development
I beg your pardon. My English is not as good as it should be. But I feel I have to write some thoughts down here.
I could write thousands of words about. But ... I better skip a few hundred I guess. ;-) I discovered „straight!?” by chance. Was looking for nice 3D Artwork. Found a picture from Braden (a real cutie!), clicked on it and ended with an “Let’s play”. On Pornhub! …
I watched for a few minutes and thought: “Wow. A typical American-college-roommate-bromance-cliché-shit. Boooring! I’m to old for this kind of shit” But at least: “Great artwork and it’s free (and Braden is really a cuitie). So give it a chance!”
So I started. And I couldn’t stop. OK, just a minute to grab some fruits from the kitchen or going to the bathroom.
I couldn’t stop until I fall asleep on the sofa in living room, with still the fu**ing mouse in my hand. Rolled over, had a nap, rolled back and continued the story. I was kinda spellbound. And of course: “straight!?” is a lot, but not “typical”, not “cliché” and no “shit”. Not even a really “bromance”. It is … unique! And great artwork (did I mention Bradon is a real cutie? :-D)
I remembers the time I was 19 yo. I was a bit shy about nudity (specially when I was hard) like Braden. I overthought too much and had this “straight-Mode-Switch” like Zack. I was a bit an actor / a drama queen like Ash. I cared more about my friends as about myself, like Mikhail. I was a bit a game freak like Braden. I was a bit interested in psychology like Zack. I had two faces (one for my friends and one for others) like “Mom-fucker Max” and I was a bit a dick, like he was. And my favourite language was – and is still - “sarcasm”, like all of them. :-D
I didn’t read the novel or played the game. I was a kinda in it. I – or better: my 19 years old me - was part of it. All these problems and thoughts, all these “I don’t know how”s and “What is when”s and “Who or what am I?”s and “What do I really feel”s. All these skipped chances. They were so familiar for me.
I can’t put in words what I felt during playing/reading “straight!?” But, in the spirit of honesty, I have never – really never!! – had thought it could be possible to be laughing, being moved to tears and being horny the same time. It is! This was an absolutely new experience for me!
“Dear 19 years old me,
please do us a favour and stop overthinking to much. Don’t give a shit of what other people think or could think. Be honest, be open minded. Try being a bit less shy (I know it’s easier said than done, but it will be ok). Your friends will support you, whatever you are or feel. Dare to make the first move and hold your eyes open for others doing the first move in your direction - you just missed three fat chances. You know what I mean! If not, you will regret someday.
In the age of 54 you’ll find a visual novel in internet (what an internet is, you’ll find out later) called “straight!?” that will proof what I just told you right. Oh… and don’t throw way your commodore C64 as soon as you’ll buy the new Amiga500. You’ll need it again later!”
Back to the present. Free or not, I'll send you a few bucks. Let's see if becoming a Patron is an further option. Your work is great. The story, the artwork (especially Braden. He is a real ... ok, this running gag gets boring XD) I really love it!
Thanks for the note and no worries on writing a few hundred (thousand) words in response to the game. I like having that effect on people and I always like hearing that someone started it for the adult content and quickly got lost in the story-- that's really something that I want to change about the adult genre, or at least give people options that it's ok to have that type of content in something but the story has to matter over all.
I also appreciate the age demographic here. I'm glad this story holds up to your version of 19 year old you as well as 54 year old you. I really wanted to make something that was going to appeal universally. Thanks a lot for the support in this <3
Well, I can't agree with "(I) got lost in the story" I guess ... Depending on what you mean exactly. Usually when I read a book or watch a movie in the cinema - if it's a good one - it takes a few minutes to get back to the real world.
If it was a really, r e a l l y good book (let's take - maybe you know one or the other: Michael Ende - Never Ending Story, Stephen King - The Dark Tower, George Orwell - 1984, JRR Tolkien - Lord of the Rings... ), well, I guess it could take a little longer (especially "The Dark Tower" which I've read for years) maybe half an hour? One hour? Two?
And now we take "Straight !?" During the game and after finishing it, I really felt like I had a crush on Braden (you know, the cutie I mentioned a couple of times). I don't mean "I love this guy" like "I love this Ash-guy, 'course what he did for his brother, for Cody, for Mikhail, for Braden and Zack ...". I mean, having a crush on him, like on a real, living, human person. With all these butterflies, all this heartache (don't ask me how I felt on the beach scene! My heart skipped a beat. Really! And I cried like a baby). I really believed (!) That I had a crush on an animated, fictional, digital character! No matter how strange this fetish sounds. Not for an hour. Not for two after the end. For more than 12 (twelve) fu *** hours. It took another 6-8 hours before I was fully back into the real world and had my mind clear and knew, "No, I don't have a crush on Braden. But I still love this character".
I've never had this weird feeling and I've never been "lost" for so long time. I can hardly put it into words. Not in German, and even less in English. I can't call it "lost in the story" anymore because it's so next level. Another "first" for me. ;-) I am still overwhelmed!
When I say "lost" I sorta mean absorbed or just really into the story so sounds like that's about where you were. I'm honored to think you'd rank me up there with a lot of the classics considering this is an adult piece . Also, it's nice to see the crush factor here because at least you were able to sympathize with Zack's character more
Thank you so much for this game! I really love it! This game make me feel sad, happy, anxious... wow! Its really amazing to feel that with just the life of Zach and Braden (and Mikhail and Max)! I'm french so i don't understand all sentences but i really feel the feelings of caracters! Thank you so much!
Thanks a lot. I know the game hasn't always translated perfectly into other languages mostly because i use so much slang in the dialogue but I still appreciate that it's mostly universal and it's humbling to hear it impact others on the other side of the world. Thanks so much
Hey aaryn. I Love the game Straight!? I had a hard time stopping it to take a break lol. I see so much of Zack in me it is crazy, and I Love how real it all seems. Great cliff hanger when Braden walked in the room. Any way I have to see what is next for Zack and Braden. My question is, I have Straight!? Downloaded to my husband's computer. When the next updates happen will I have to download more content to see what happens next. Oh please I need more lol. P.S. I will become a Patrion very soon. Zach my husband started a new job and more $ will be coming in Thank you 😊
yooo, thanks for the feedback and glad you're enjoying things. So for the updates, you'll have to redownload. Another problem that people always have on updates is you can't load your old game. However, you can start a new game and I have a setting where you just click a thing things to reactive the choices that you need from the previous updates and you should be good. If you use old saves, it usually crashes the game. And don't worry about contributing, only do so if you're comfortable. If you're starting a new job, make sure you guys get your stuff taken care of before you worry about the game over here. It's free for a reason. Thanks in advance.
They will be posted on the Patreon site first. I post all the news related to the game over there. You can also check my Twitter or join the Discord if you'd like. All of those work. I post the updates for free 3 weeks after the Patreon access and that's when i'll update things over here
Lot of people have been interested in this. Truth is, there' isn't a "right" route here. I think it depends on the person. The "respect" route is more traditional and story based. It still checks the boxes with the NSFW stuff and I think it's appealing if you just want a standard romance. The "pervy" route was my attempt to mess with people that play these games thinking they have control of things and I wanted to flip that. In reality, the pervy route probably has more a twist to it and that's kinda fun--plus it also has some amazing Ash scenes that the respect peeps missed. But they both work. They both are hopefully accomplishing what I wanted to accomplish here in terms of story, adult content with no limits, and still opening people up the possibilities of this genre as a storytelling medium without limits
first things first......This game is awsome played it throug in one piece...so 13 fucking hours you guys are crazy in an amazing way.
I totaly can understand Zack, that he is scared about telling people the truth and talking about his feelings. but he has good friends who are helping him over this gab and a very cute loverboy with a little bit to haired Ass, but this is a taste thing i guess.
Coming out is not easy and it will never be easy, because first of all you have to be aware about yourselfe. In my Case i was thinking im just attracted in butts, so in my Millitary time i was allways putting the straight switch on, and was not looking at the firm butts so there was no chance popping a boner ( not always worked because we had one cute guy in our unit and it was rerally hard to not get boned when he was showering)...the point is i was hiding it.
I needed to die first to figure out that live is to short to mess around with and that it can be over in a blink...officially i was dead for two minutes that changed me completely. At first i reallised i am not the brave soldier i pretent to be and second i am Gay.
of course i was not runnig around and telling it every body. when i got out of the hospital i got Promoted and was now the Sergeant of my unit.
So it happend that i had to stay over the Weekend and had to prepare stuff for the next week. so in the evenig i walked into the empty shower, i was starting my bussines as i heard someone stepping in, i looked over my shoulder and see the cutie i always popped a Boner so i got hard in an instand..but at this moment aware about my selfe i was giving a shit what he might think about me i was tired of lying to myselfe so i continued my buissnes rock hard.
I was rinsing of as i could feel someone is standing behind me,i looked back over my shoulder and there he was wet and naked and rock hard as i am. He grabed me and pulled me close to him, he started to kiss my neck caring my breast and playing with my dick, and i enjoyed it i could feel his boner in my Crack and i was ready to go much further with him. becuse in this moment i was truly for the fist time in my god damn live feeling who i am.
After that there was no point in hiding anymore i was really giving a shit what people might say and i was coming out.
first to my sister and she just sayed " well bro.....this is nothing new. I knew it already" and she was true as a boy i was allready poping boners when i have seen a cute boy.
My mom was more difficult as i told her that im Gay she sayed to me i wish i had never born you, that hurts a lot so i blocked her number and cut the wires.
And i think the point of my story is here. Be like you are, live is to short to mess around, it can be over in a blink. I learned it the hard way, and if people can't accept you like you are, cut the wires they are not worth it. My sister is still in my back with all her support and for that i lover her. My mom is still not talking with me since seven years now it is some kind of sad yes but to be honest i give a shit. Because its my live and i live it like i want to.
thats why i can undersand zack in this game i was like him, hiding myselfe and im glad its over.
but how about a translation into German, if you guys wish to i can try it but it is a hard nut to chew on and it will need time because i allready looked into it and its a freaking lot of text to translate. let me know if you are down for that.
It sucks to see such sad experiences. I guess I never actually had sad experiences because I mostly identified with the straight boys, I just happened to like dudes at the same time. However, a lot of those interests were genuine and still are and I kinda like that about me. The downside is that the sexuality was in complete odds with the normal way that I acted--people never knew-- and those that I tell usually joke and say "prove it" because it's just nothing most people would ever guess about me. In some regards, that makes the process even harder (for me anyway). I do agree that you need to surround yourself with positive people. The older I get, the less I care for appearances and pretending to be something that I'm not. Time is finite and I choose to spend it with people that are more important to me. That's a hard transition to make, like you said, but it feels more important with the passing days
This game is so amazing to me because it shows of what could be if i had control when and how i came out. I'm just gonna say this that nobody and i mean nobody should pressure you to come out and you have the decision when to do it that is comfortable for you(obviously there are some people who are scared and maybe becomes to having internalized homophobia but that's a different discussion)
My coming out story was definitely something that should be avoided but unfortunately the adults that were involved were idiots and insensitive. So In High school I was still having the in the closet phase but i already knew i liked boys ever since Elementary. I had this one friend who i told i had a dream about the guy that we were kissing and then obviously high school drama she told it to my crushes best friend and he told my crush and this whole thing happened he started to avoid me and when we do interact he was rude and eventually i resulted into i like him while also hating him and i vandalized my chair out of spite saying "I hate (Crush name)" So obviously my teacher saw this and immediately went to the principal and thus i was suspended so i understood i was suspended because of vandalizing but what i don't understand is why do they need to fucking explain the reason to my parents why i wrote that(by this point everyone already knew that i had a crush on this guy even the teachers and principal knew because why not, the students in my school were literally a gossip blog waiting to happen) so they did that i didn't really had any choice and they told my parents basically i was gay and like this whole thing happened with my parents which made me so uncomfortable not only because i wasn't the one to say to come out but also my parent were extremely religious and this whole bullshit conversation about how its hard being the way i am(yeah no shit but so is life so literally no difference) and my uncle was the same thing i was and he resulted to becoming paralyzed and then died because of stress(yeah uh can't you tell were different people and if he died because of stress then can't you tell you are doing the same thing?)
So tl:dr YOU AND ONLY YOU SHOULD HAVE THE POWER TO COME OUT ON YOUR OWN AND SHOULD ONLY DO IT WHEN YOU ARE COMFORTABLE
ps... AND ALSO MAKE SURE YOU HAVE FRIENDS THAT WILL SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHAT BECAUSE I'M TELLING YOU NOT EVERY PARENT WILL, BLOOD MAY BE THICKER THAN WATER BUT BLOOD IS SOMETHING THAT YOU ALREADY HAVE AND WATER IS SOMETHING YOU NEED TO SURVIVE AND LIVE
First, i want to say I'm sorry about your experience. I wish there was a way that we could all have control over things like this but sadly that isn't the case. Some people are malicious and others are far too aloof to realize the potential damage in accidently busting someone out.
The game is designed as you say. It's not the way to come out but it's depicting a way to slowly come out. It's also designed to help connect the dots between things that don't make sense or ways that people can perpetuate their own homophobia internally and shows potential ways to mitigate that--to slowly work towards your own level of acceptance or understanding of that. This will not be everyone's story. A lot of Zack's connections and philosophical rants are my own and how I connected the dots. I write it to reinforce it in myself and I write it in the hopes that it will help others that have struggled with their own fight of acceptance. I do wish you the best in your journey. I can't promise you that your own journey with be without obstacles; but I will say that mine has and is getting better and for that reason alone, I'm optimistic for you <3
correct. New updates will always be a continuation of the story for now. Once the game is completed (in probably 2 more updates) then future updates will go back to add things and redo the beginning part. Basically polish things up and add a lot of the stuff i had to skip back in the day
ok so i downloaded the recent one and when i get to the part i almost cried on (when Braden walks into the new dorm surprising Zack) it still says to be continued and then ends it
Yep, that's the end of the current build. I'm working on things from there. The new update, when it comes out, will pick up right there with a new chapter...one last chapter
One major story with 2 different perspectives based on the choice you make to touch or not. That decision sends subtle shockwaves out throughout the story that fundamentally change the tone. Specifically the last update (second half of chapter 9) is very different
This, this game is great. I honestly didn't realize how invested I was until the end and I got all emotional. But I seriously can't wait until the next chapter. Very good job and thanks for such a great story!
I finished this game last week and it legit gave me a lot to think about. I came out to a few friends in high school and a few more in college. I later came out to my parents b4 graduating and there are still some challenges. This story is a great blend of the coming out experience, a strong bond between friends and the struggles faced due to society being so determined to label or judge. So many are pushed into situations just because they are told they have to follow a certain path and they end up neglecting their own path as a result. I study mental health and I think this game is a great game for those who feel like no one understands their struggle. This game is full of passion, laughs and something to just make you see beyond the misery of the world. There are good people out there to form strong bonds with so never give up the fight to find them. To those who are struggling, you are not alone no matter how often it feels that way.
I appreciate this and I'm glad the purpose of the story really resonated with you. I always appreciate comments from those people in the mental health field because it was always meant to be a tool. It's an odd way to reach an audience but there's definitely a market in this genre for people who have struggled and I thought this was a solid way to reach them.
Well I think you did a wonderful job and I'm looking forward to reading the rest of the story. I'm sharing the story with friends in hopes of it connecting with them in its own way. We all have our story to tell and I think your story hits a variety of angles to make people think. Mental health is all about working through thoughts in a healthy manner. We can't run from our concerns all the time so it's important to face them in a constructive and beneficial manner
😄honestly those are probably some of the best convos. Especially when it's friends who aren't afraid to ask or answer the real sensitive questions. That's how you know you're comfortable around each other
Honestly whole game was amazing up uptil end of chapter 9, i know its the story about Braden and Zack but i cant get over that there wasnt any option after what happened at the gym with Braden, I mean i personally wouldnt just get over something so big so quickly and it just makes me furious, anyway too bad we dont get to have room with Jordyn, he seemed like a fun guy.
[Heavy Spoilers] Appreciate the comment although I feel kinda bad that you seem to have missed the entire point of that powerful exchange and the communication between the two characters.
One important thing to note here is that your "fury" should be directed back at your own choice in the game. In the route you chose (pervy in this case it seems), Zack never wanted to do what you chose to have him do. He even says as much right after you make the choice to touch Braden ( he states that it's almost like someone else made the choice for him). He actually fights back against the player's choice and expresses guilty throughout the game once that choice is made. However, the assumption here is that the player was ok with that choice because you had three separate occasions to shut it down. In return, I wanted to flip this upside-down on the players that chose to play this for solely pervy reasons and have them essentially get masterfully outsmarted by the person they chose to creep on. However, Braden was never meant to be a villain. I saw the player's choice of pervy/respect as a choice on what you actually wanted Braden to be--not Zack. Regardless of your choice here, the assumption was that you can't be furious with the characters because you're the hand that made them do that in the first place and they both obviously felt terrible about it--hence their discussion and subsequent promise to never speak about it again.
The discussion is also really important here because i wanted a template for relationships to actually talk about heavy shit in a healthy manner. Media is inundated with reality TV and dysfunction. I wanted to show a positive way for people to express strong and hurt feelings. While they're both initially pissed off, the exchange has them settle down. They listen to each other objectively because, in the end, they both fucked up, and I believe in healthy relationships, you dont need to keep score on who fucked up more. You talk things out and you try to see if you can pick up the pieces together or not. That exchange was about acceptance, forgiveness, and moving forward despite mistakes they were both truly sorry for.
Well I didnt think my choice back there would have consequences since none appeared in like 2 chapters, so i didnt bother thinking about right or wrong, but still what Zack did was nothing comparing to what Braden did, I mean yea that was pervy but man comparing what Braden did, Zack was a saint at that point. But what frustrates me even more is the whole thing when Zack lied about his GF and Braden heard it, and then made entire charade about how he cant trust Zack because of something this small, yet he was basically manipulating Zack the whole time, sure he didnt mean it in bad way but it isnt pleasant feeling when you know you ve been toyed with and played like you re some kind of tool, kinda makes you feel dumb.
I suppose i could be somewhat confrontational (gently so in this case) but if you didn't think about the consequences about Zack's choice then, why would you expect Braden to? Braden even specifically says it started out small. How many things in our lives start out as a small lie or stretch of the truth, only to continue to accumulate and become a leviathan of lies. At some point, we have to shut those down and the bigger the lie becomes, the harder it gets to shut down--or to even find a smooth way to shut it down.
There's also a ton of truth in how frustrated we can become with others when they essentially wrong us in the same way we do them. It could also be projection from Braden. To me, there's about a million reasons why Braden could react the way he did. It's a dilemma and because of that, it was avoided and it festered as most things that are avoided do and I wanted to show that things can fester with good people that originally had honest intentions. To me, that exchange is way more complex than just a comparison of who did what worse
I attmid i feel sorry for Braden, He figured out that Zack is attracted in him and just wanna know how far this goes, so he try's to lure zack out of his Snailhousing. But soon Braden develope feelings for Zack he dosn't knew he is able to, and get trapped in his own snowball. i just can imagine what a torture it is. and i don't wanna spoiler so at the end of carpter 9 i cried like a little kid this story got me really bad because anyhow i can understand both. and i'm looking forward for the next chapters because would like to see how this guys become even closer (wink) they are made for each other. Anyway both ends are supperior (hope i wrote this word right....guess not but you know what i mean) becuse both endings will send your emotions on a rollercoaster.
Well i dont agree with your view, i have my own views on the situation, still amazing work. Also, I loved your quotes at the end of each chapter, were they from some book? because if they werent, u ve got some talent, those were amazing.
nah, it's me. the quotes are from the game itself. I basically preview each chapter with a random out of context quote that happens somewhere in the reading so then you get to sorta wait until it pops up to see what it really meant
Until 2 days ago I didn't even know that VN existed, and I had the inmense luck that my first :) has been this one I loved it and read it in 2 days and I felt very touched You can feel that it has been written by good persons and so I have not hesitated to contributing right away in patreon Thank you!! and looking forward for the next chapter
Thank you so much for the contribution. I'm honored that you chose this as your first VN although it's probably not the best example of the traditional use of the genre. Sorta started off doing my own thing with this and it just went from there. I'm glad it became something different though. I appreciate the note and the support. More to come !
Hold up I almost cried at the end that was addictive beautiful and just weirdly great the ending though was built different I literally almost cried with happy tears when I saw Braden
glad things are hitting you in the feels. that always means a lot cause i let myself go to really emotional places when i write this. always glad when it hits :)
that's part of what i'm trying to accomplish here. just sorta make a template for the process and normalize that it's not quite as easy as just blurting out to the world that your bi or gay or whatever. there's a process there and sometimes that's really freaking hard for some people to connect those dots
just finished ch9 and omg i loved it, Codi i think that is his name i loved him in his underwear lol, i cant wait for updates, btw sorry for not paying anything im broke this month but next month im so going to contribute i think im in love lol
yo, no worries. seriously. this game is free for a reason and I run on donations only. Even the feedback is meaningful to me and i appreciate that. Glad you're in love. Stay tuned. next month i'm switching this project to my main job so i'm getting serious with it so hopefully that only improves things. Appreciate the support but dont short yourself <3
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This is one of the best games that I have ever played. Honestly was not what I was expecting. It sucked me in and I can't wait for the next chapter. What program did you use to make the characters and scenes? It looks great
heh, that's a bold statement to say it's one of the best games but thank you and I appreciate it. I use Daz3D for the art stuff. It's a free program but the assets cost. We've also used Blender to create some of the environments and movies
So I’m just gonna cut straight to the chase and say that this VN wasn’t what I was expecting when I originally downloaded it. I went in blind thinking that I was going to play another point and click erotica visual novel with some saucy scenes and be able to call it a day, but to say I was pleasantly surprised with the depth and emotional nature of the story would be a gross understatement.
I don’t really identify as a writer, don’t have the discipline despite having the imagination, but I’m generally a pretty hard person to please in terms of character development and character arcs, but what you’ve done with Zack and Braden’s story is pretty magical. I feel like the slowed pace of the novel adds a lot of weight to your narrative giving the reader time to really sit in their choices (which is probably why other commenters had such a visceral reaction to the pervy route in chapter 9 lmao). It’s not just some race to get to the saucier parts of the story (which admittedly are very much there and very enjoyable) or to the next H scene. Obviously no disrespect to VNs like that, it’s just refreshing to see a tender story of identity, friendship, and found family really be explored with this sense of solemnity and respect.
I’m hooked pretty heavily and even joined up on your Patreon so I could follow development more closely so I won’t be behind on how Zack and Braden’s relationship continues to grow and blossom. Not gonna lie though I love slow burn fluff and I’m really hoping to get to see the catharsis of Braden calling Zack his boyfriend at some point!
Keep doing what you’re doing!
Heh, chapter 9 turned out to be one of my favs. I've been worried about that, fearing I'd hit the apex of the story much earlier--especially given how much I liked chapter 8 so I was honestly surprised how happy I was with it.
I'll also say thanks for jumping onboard for the Patreon support. That really does help and there's honestly a lot more content over there with some behind the scenes as well as more of the adult stuff if you're into that sorta thing. Thanks a lot of the warm words and for just saying that the story moved when when you identify as a tough critic; comments like that mean a lot to me
will be on android?
I'm gonna try and release an official android build before long. it's on my list, i'm just spending more time writing the next update and stuff versus those things but I'd like to have the next update on android
thanks!
I feel like I'd want to do a more in-depth review after the story's been released in its entirety, but, for now, after two weeks of being unable to get this game out of my head, I want to say thank you.
Thank you for the long hours, stress, and effort you've put into this game. Thank you for creating something equal parts beautiful, magical, and so damn real. Thank you for putting into visuals the honest struggles that countless people are/have been dealing with on a regular basis, especially as a free download. Thank you for the balance of excitement, apprehension, and doubt throughout the meticulously-paced story that make those moments of payoff so much more worth it. Thank you for creating a compelling and authentic cast of characters, from their dialogue to their actions and thoughts, flaws and all. Thank you for introducing more genuine love in a market/world saturated with superficial bursts of lust.
And lastly, thank you for inspiring a fire of emotions (tears and all) within me that I've not felt in a long while, for crafting something that I've been craving out of media for years, and for showing me that I want to contribute to the world in a similar way.
I hope that the rest of development goes smoothly, and I'm so looking forward to what you have in store!
This was a really sincere post and I really appreciated it. Made me smile so I'm going to return your list of "thank you's" by saying thank you for taking the time to be thoughtful and just checking in about it. two weeks is a long time to be quasi-haunted by a game so I'm going to take that as a compliment, especially for this genre. Things are progressing and I hope the next installment lives up to the hype. This post meant a lot so thanks again. seriously <3
Definitely intended it to be a compliment! The more a game consumes my life, the better it is, and the glow still hasn't faded, haha. So the least I could do was share how much of an impact it's made. <3
well, i really appreciate the time you took to do that so thank you :)
Since there is only one chapter left, please make them finally to have a sexual relation. We have been waiting for this for soooo long
no spoilers but hopefully things in the story will work out appropriately (i know, super lame answer). It's up to the characters more than it is me. I lost control of this thing a long time ago
When will the next episode be released? I'm so excited for the next parts. Great work, please let this project to keep going :D
I don't have a date yet but I'm crossing my fingers for October some time. No promises but I'm trying
I can't wait and I know you are doing your best. Amazing work! Thanks.
thanks a lot <3
I love this game, its history, everything (especially Braden), too bad that there is only one chapter left.
Thanks for the support. One more to go. Hopefully, it's worth it
Like Moggie there, I too made an accout to comment here.
This was probably the coolest thing I have ever downloaded. I went through it in both directions. It is so well thought out. The Characters are utterly Amazing!...The mix of personality in the entire story is utterly incredible. Like Zack & Barden, I am not really sure what I am. I despise labels, I think they are the problem & not the solution. I am just not one to advertise. But I would give anything to find a Braden in my life. But Jesus, this was a story that I believe every human being needs to not only see, but need to live. I am pretty old at this point. Much of life behind me. But Wow, Just Wow. What a story. Please keep me updated on future releases, if they are half as good as this story, You got me. Bravo, AWESOME JOB & Best of luck to you. Please keep this going. The world needs Zack, Braden, Mikile, Ash & even Cody. I will come back to this story, often. Sorry I don't wish to look at it as a game, but a truly interactive book. And a Damned Good one, on par with Excellence.
Thank You
Dave
Hey Dave, thanks for the kind words. I'm glad you were able to vibe with this on an emotional level because that really is the intention here. I will say that I give less update news on here becuase it's too many sites to manage but I do put the information out on the Patreon. That's mostly for people that sub over there but you can also check our Discord if you use that. Joining that is free and you can talk to us directly and I usually end up spilling the beans on update stuff anyway because I'm terrible like that. I'm hoping for an update soon. it's been forever and I ran into sooo many problems (mostly real life stuff and my own ambition) but I'm back on track again now so stay tuned. I post it here about 3 weeks after I release on Patreon (the Patreon release is based on donations to help pay the bills) but it will still be free
Thank You Aaryn for your response. Not only did I vibe with it. It bordered on a Life Altering Experience, that validated many of my own beliefs about the broader community & that they may not see, But they are a greater challenge to the direction of the " movement " than the general public. I could go into much greater detail, but I will save that for patreon or discord should I ever get the time to chat with you. I am not sure you even have any idea what you have unleashed with this story. It simply could not be any more perfect!.....This is so deep on so many levels, It is almost incomprehensible. I have simply not been able to get it out of my head. Again, Thank You, I do not think you even know, the impact this has had on me.
Dave
Sure thing. i'm glad it hit the spot for ya. a lot of that was hopefully intentional but I also like the way that a lot of people have personalized this more as a very adult learning experience, too. it's empowering to know that it hit its mark and is helping people <3
Hey, I made an account here just so I could comment! I’ve not been following this story for long, but I’ve blitzed through it. Ngl it’s made me horny, made me laugh, and made me cry. I identify with Zack so much, his inner monologues are stunning. I have a dissociative disorder so can barely concentrate most days, this story is the first thing in years that’s kept me outta my head for longer than a few minutes. I’m actually excited to not dissociate so I can keep reading! Literally for that I can’t thank you enough! I know that sounds sappy af!
Thanks again for making this... keep up the good work! <3
haha. glad you went through the trifecta of horny/laugh/cry. it's not usually the reaction you get from these types of games but i wanted to do something different. I'm also glad it's helping you work through your own challenges. I write it to work through mine so it's nice to see that benefit someone else <3
this game is really amazing, the characters and the plot i really wonder how anyone can do something so perfect, i'm so grateful for the story of the game... it's helping me to accept myself...
thanks for checking in. It's def far from perfect and I have a lot of plans to polish it up but I really appreciate you enjoying it so far. Honestly, I appreciate that it's helping you out even more, though. That means a lot just to hear it's helping someone else out there. Take your time. For some of us, that road to acceptance can be a long one
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sry that i don´t wrote it in english but its difficult for me
no worries at all. that's the great thing about translate. glad you like it. it's a nice upgrade from the one before and it's been on my list for a long time
okay I loved this game no joke I actually saw a guy play the parts of this game on pornhub…..I know shut up…… anyhow he was taking forever drawing it out and I just couldn’t resist to find out what would happen sooo I just downloaded the game myself and played all night cause I was that wrapped up into it anyhow I can’t wait till the next update do you know when it will be cause I can’t wait even though you said it will be the last chapter I just can’t wait it’s soooo good anyhow that’s it keep up the awesome amazing work!!!! Ahhhhh I can’t wait hopefully you say like in less than a week ha ha ha
haha. it'll def be more than a week. i ran into some problems early on and have made some life adjustments to compensate so i'm back on track again. I'm working 7 days a week on it right now to catch up. I'm planning on putting out a devlog on the patreon page as an update but it's getting closer. Just a ton of pics to do for the next one and a little more setup. I'm glad you liked it though, means a lot to me <3
I was just horny but this game got deep wtf
oh, it gets pretty deep :)
just out of curiosity will we see zack and Braden do the dirty and will they ever become a couple because they are so cute I totally ship them
I think that's something that we'll all have to wait on and see. there's so many things that could go right or wrong with how they're set up. no spoilers tho :p
omg I love this, it's the best visual novel I've ever played! It's awesome! When is the next update coming? And I saw one comment of you saying the next episode is the last one, but I wish it would be longer, I like it a lot, hoping there'll be more content than that, no pressure though
heh, it's already like 45, 000 lines of code. 95% of that is dialogue so it's long already. But yeah, chapter 10 is planned to be the last one for now
Ohh That sooo Bums me out. I can see so much to happen in this story. My imagination goes crazy thinking about how summer brake goes & next school year. How Ashley fairs. I really feel bad for him. Such a jerk & yet a Hero. I do hope, that after you get 10 done, you come back to this eventually. This is a must story for all. I am Sooooo Looking forward to 10 though. Albeit Bittersweet now......:(
hey I can’t wait for your next update I just finished the game i almost cryed at because of Ash did and how many more chapters do you think there will be I don’t want this game to end!!!
heh. glad you liked the ending oft he latest one. There's one more chapter to go so 10 total :)
just out of curiosity will we see zack and Braden do the dirty and will they ever become a couple because they are so cute I totally ship them
I do what you said and it happened the same. I have the carpet of the game but when I opened there is only the records of all the game but I can opened it normal. If not there is a way to download it on the mobile??
Sorry for being so heavy
what error are you getting? Or what is doing or not doing? I don’t have an official Android port yet
When I download the game on my computer I have to opened with WinRar and it's not free. There's another way to opened that is free??
I use 7zip instead of winrar and it's free.
Also Windows has a built in software that will extract files too. In your downloads folder, if you left click on the file in the explorer window, you should see an "extract" highlighted up in the top of that window. If you click just under that you'll see it says "compressed folder tools". If you click that, you'll see "extract all" pop up.
This was the best visual novel i have ever played, can't wait for the next chapter!! Keep up the good work!!
Thanks a lot. I really appreciate that <3
the best and REALEST vn ive ever played i need this full thing pronto lmao (but no pressure on the devs lol take your time )
<3
Someone knows how to download straight?! in Spain?? Please help me
the location shouldn't matter. what are you stuck on? Some people had problems starting the game because they didn't realize the folder is zipped. Not sure if that's where your problem is or not
All I can say is I wish so much I could have played this when I was a closeted youngster. It really is that impactful. I hope it will help many young people who haven't come out yet or are still discovering themselves in the often painful but also beautiful process of discovering who they are. Thank you for this game.
Thanks a lot. I'm glad that you appreciate the perspective here and that means a lot. That really was the angle that I was going for <3
Jesus Christ...That's about all I can say after playing through this game in a day and a half. I feel like for any young person out there, this can serve as a reference that you are perfect the way you are and to not judge things before you experience them. It also serves as a guide to love yourself the way you are and to be forgiving with yourself when things don't go your way. This really captures a lot of the struggles of real life, coming to terms with your insecurities, trying to find out who you are, and deal with the social anxieties we all have. This VN single handedly made me create an account on here just to give you the props you deserve. This is right up there with Being A DIK for story telling and I am so glad to have come across both of them. As a bisexual man this speaks a lot to me and I felt myself sympathizing a lot with Zack and understanding a lot of his struggles. Every chapter I kept getting more invested and was dreading the time that I would hit the point of "To Be Continued"...I just couldn't stop playing because I was encapsulated by the story more and more. I am glad that things are finally starting to pick up and am dreading the wait to continue the story. This is by far the most tame Adult VN I have come across, but it's by far one of the best ones out there. I can tell you put a major emphasis on story telling and I can't tell you how much that's appreciated. Keep up the amazing work
First off, I'm sorry about the slow response here. I got behind and I'm sorta working backwards on replies. I really appreciate everything that you've said: your reactions, the fact that you made an account on here just to comment; things like this are amazing. I do want to specifically note that the game still checks boxes for the bi crew out there. Specifically with these types of games, you dont see that role used very often. While I don't want to overtly put labels into this game (mostly because people get so fucking extra about them that I was afraid they'd focus more on the label than the actual person behind them). I'm glad that you can relate here and it means a lot that you feel it's still applicable to the bi crew out there so thanks for letting me know that :)
I am not sure how long this comment of mine will be, but I really need to send this message to you.
I have always been a huge fan of deep and REAL stories in any kind of media. Things that feel fleshed out and truly meaningful always get me in all the right ways. And this game of yours did exactly that.
I will admit that I was simply perusing through several games for simple, mindless entertainment or something to itch my gay brain. I am simply speechless when it comes to this game.
I had no idea what to expect, but the premise hooked me pretty easily. From the moment I started playing, I could already tell that this game was special. I could not stop playing and literally had to force myself to take breaks. It was just so easy to become immersed into the story and truly invest in all of the characters and their relationships with one another. I have played many games, but this is SO up there with one of the most memorable, most heart-wrenching but emotionally gratifying games I have ever played. And it's not even done!
I cannot tell you how many times I cried. Everything felt so real and so heavy, but all in good ways.
I am probably being way too passionate about this but you should proud of yourself for creating such an amazing experience. I cannot thank you enough for the joy you have given me through this game. Not to get too into it, but I am going through a tough time, and as someone who is 20 years old, being able to live through such a beautiful experience with incredible characters has made the last week or so so worth the time I invested in this game.
Extreme and major kudos to you. Please take all the time and care you need to work on this because whatever you are doing is above and beyond. I am eagerly, yet patiently, waiting for the next continuation piece to this wonderful story. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
heh....nah....you're not being too passionate. I really appreciate this. I'm very passionate in writing it. It's such a vulnerable place that I have to go to write this so it's very meaningful for people to write long comments and have emotional reactions to it. I've cried writing some of the scenes so I'm glad that was passed along to you over the course of playing. I'm just as invested as you are <3
Please tell me an update will come out soon. I'm passionate about this game and I'm super curious to know how this story will end. Since already grateful, P.s: I love your work.
thanks for the support. still working on it but it's being focused on more heavily now. I always end up trying to create more work for myself
Please tell me there is a way I can find out when there will be a new release!!
you can follow the patreon site here . Supporters there get the game on release. 3 weeks after release, i then post it there for free. I do post it here but it's a little further down on the priority list but it will eventually be posted here. You can also keep an eye on my twitter as I'll post something on there when the new version comes out as well as additional stuff regarding the development
I beg your pardon. My English is not as good as it should be.
But I feel I have to write some thoughts down here.
I could write thousands of words about. But ... I better skip a few hundred I guess. ;-)
I discovered „straight!?” by chance. Was looking for nice 3D Artwork. Found a picture from Braden (a real cutie!), clicked on it and ended with an “Let’s play”. On Pornhub! …
I watched for a few minutes and thought: “Wow. A typical American-college-roommate-bromance-cliché-shit. Boooring! I’m to old for this kind of shit”
But at least: “Great artwork and it’s free (and Braden is really a cuitie). So give it a chance!”
So I started. And I couldn’t stop.
OK, just a minute to grab some fruits from the kitchen or going to the bathroom.
I couldn’t stop until I fall asleep on the sofa in living room, with still the fu**ing mouse in my hand. Rolled over, had a nap, rolled back and continued the story. I was kinda spellbound.
And of course: “straight!?” is a lot, but not “typical”, not “cliché” and no “shit”. Not even a really “bromance”. It is … unique! And great artwork (did I mention Bradon is a real cutie? :-D)
I remembers the time I was 19 yo.
I was a bit shy about nudity (specially when I was hard) like Braden. I overthought too much and had this “straight-Mode-Switch” like Zack. I was a bit an actor / a drama queen like Ash. I cared more about my friends as about myself, like Mikhail. I was a bit a game freak like Braden. I was a bit interested in psychology like Zack. I had two faces (one for my friends and one for others) like “Mom-fucker Max” and I was a bit a dick, like he was.
And my favourite language was – and is still - “sarcasm”, like all of them. :-D
I didn’t read the novel or played the game. I was a kinda in it. I – or better: my 19 years old me - was part of it.
All these problems and thoughts, all these “I don’t know how”s and “What is when”s and “Who or what am I?”s and “What do I really feel”s. All these skipped chances.
They were so familiar for me.
I can’t put in words what I felt during playing/reading “straight!?”
But, in the spirit of honesty, I have never – really never!! – had thought it could be possible to be laughing, being moved to tears and being horny the same time.
It is! This was an absolutely new experience for me!
“Dear 19 years old me,
please do us a favour and stop overthinking to much.
Don’t give a shit of what other people think or could think. Be honest, be open minded. Try being a bit less shy (I know it’s easier said than done, but it will be ok).
Your friends will support you, whatever you are or feel.
Dare to make the first move and hold your eyes open for others doing the first move in your direction - you just missed three fat chances. You know what I mean!
If not, you will regret someday.
In the age of 54 you’ll find a visual novel in internet (what an internet is, you’ll find out later) called “straight!?” that will proof what I just told you right.
Oh… and don’t throw way your commodore C64 as soon as you’ll buy the new Amiga500. You’ll need it again later!”
Back to the present. Free or not, I'll send you a few bucks.
Let's see if becoming a Patron is an further option.
Your work is great. The story, the artwork (especially Braden. He is a real ... ok, this running gag gets boring XD) I really love it!
Heya :)
Thanks for the note and no worries on writing a few hundred (thousand) words in response to the game. I like having that effect on people and I always like hearing that someone started it for the adult content and quickly got lost in the story-- that's really something that I want to change about the adult genre, or at least give people options that it's ok to have that type of content in something but the story has to matter over all.
I also appreciate the age demographic here. I'm glad this story holds up to your version of 19 year old you as well as 54 year old you. I really wanted to make something that was going to appeal universally. Thanks a lot for the support in this <3
Well, I can't agree with "(I) got lost in the story" I guess ... Depending on what you mean exactly.
Usually when I read a book or watch a movie in the cinema - if it's a good one - it takes a few minutes to get back to the real world.
If it was a really, r e a l l y good book (let's take - maybe you know one or the other: Michael Ende - Never Ending Story, Stephen King - The Dark Tower, George Orwell - 1984, JRR Tolkien - Lord of the Rings... ), well, I guess it could take a little longer (especially "The Dark Tower" which I've read for years) maybe half an hour? One hour? Two?
And now we take "Straight !?" During the game and after finishing it, I really felt like I had a crush on Braden (you know, the cutie I mentioned a couple of times). I don't mean "I love this guy" like "I love this Ash-guy, 'course what he did for his brother, for Cody, for Mikhail, for Braden and Zack ...". I mean, having a crush on him, like on a real, living, human person. With all these butterflies, all this heartache (don't ask me how I felt on the beach scene! My heart skipped a beat. Really! And I cried like a baby).
I really believed (!) That I had a crush on an animated, fictional, digital character! No matter how strange this fetish sounds.
Not for an hour. Not for two after the end. For more than 12 (twelve) fu *** hours. It took another 6-8 hours before I was fully back into the real world and had my mind clear and knew, "No, I don't have a crush on Braden. But I still love this character".
I've never had this weird feeling and I've never been "lost" for so long time. I can hardly put it into words. Not in German, and even less in English. I can't call it "lost in the story" anymore because it's so next level. Another "first" for me. ;-)
I am still overwhelmed!
When I say "lost" I sorta mean absorbed or just really into the story so sounds like that's about where you were. I'm honored to think you'd rank me up there with a lot of the classics considering this is an adult piece . Also, it's nice to see the crush factor here because at least you were able to sympathize with Zack's character more
Thank you so much for this game! I really love it! This game make me feel sad, happy, anxious... wow! Its really amazing to feel that with just the life of Zach and Braden (and Mikhail and Max)! I'm french so i don't understand all sentences but i really feel the feelings of caracters! Thank you so much!
Thanks a lot. I know the game hasn't always translated perfectly into other languages mostly because i use so much slang in the dialogue but I still appreciate that it's mostly universal and it's humbling to hear it impact others on the other side of the world. Thanks so much
Je suis absolument d'Accord!
I'm absolutely with you! :-)
Hey aaryn. I Love the game Straight!? I had a hard time stopping it to take a break lol. I see so much of Zack in me it is crazy, and I Love how real it all seems. Great cliff hanger when Braden walked in the room. Any way I have to see what is next for Zack and Braden. My question is, I have Straight!? Downloaded to my husband's computer. When the next updates happen will I have to download more content to see what happens next. Oh please I need more lol. P.S. I will become a Patrion very soon. Zach my husband started a new job and more $ will be coming in Thank you 😊
yooo, thanks for the feedback and glad you're enjoying things. So for the updates, you'll have to redownload. Another problem that people always have on updates is you can't load your old game. However, you can start a new game and I have a setting where you just click a thing things to reactive the choices that you need from the previous updates and you should be good. If you use old saves, it usually crashes the game. And don't worry about contributing, only do so if you're comfortable. If you're starting a new job, make sure you guys get your stuff taken care of before you worry about the game over here. It's free for a reason. Thanks in advance.
thank you so much. You are so awesome. One last question. When and where can I find the updates? Thank you .
They will be posted on the Patreon site first. I post all the news related to the game over there. You can also check my Twitter or join the Discord if you'd like. All of those work. I post the updates for free 3 weeks after the Patreon access and that's when i'll update things over here
thank you so much for everything 💗
Sure thing. Thanks for the interest. I really appreciate it <3
Lot of people have been interested in this. Truth is, there' isn't a "right" route here. I think it depends on the person. The "respect" route is more traditional and story based. It still checks the boxes with the NSFW stuff and I think it's appealing if you just want a standard romance. The "pervy" route was my attempt to mess with people that play these games thinking they have control of things and I wanted to flip that. In reality, the pervy route probably has more a twist to it and that's kinda fun--plus it also has some amazing Ash scenes that the respect peeps missed. But they both work. They both are hopefully accomplishing what I wanted to accomplish here in terms of story, adult content with no limits, and still opening people up the possibilities of this genre as a storytelling medium without limits
first things first......This game is awsome played it throug in one piece...so 13 fucking hours you guys are crazy in an amazing way.
I totaly can understand Zack, that he is scared about telling people the truth and talking about his feelings. but he has good friends who are helping him over this gab and a very cute loverboy with a little bit to haired Ass, but this is a taste thing i guess.
Coming out is not easy and it will never be easy, because first of all you have to be aware about yourselfe. In my Case i was thinking im just attracted in butts, so in my Millitary time i was allways putting the straight switch on, and was not looking at the firm butts so there was no chance popping a boner ( not always worked because we had one cute guy in our unit and it was rerally hard to not get boned when he was showering)...the point is i was hiding it.
I needed to die first to figure out that live is to short to mess around with and that it can be over in a blink...officially i was dead for two minutes that changed me completely. At first i reallised i am not the brave soldier i pretent to be and second i am Gay.
of course i was not runnig around and telling it every body. when i got out of the hospital i got Promoted and was now the Sergeant of my unit.
So it happend that i had to stay over the Weekend and had to prepare stuff for the next week. so in the evenig i walked into the empty shower, i was starting my bussines as i heard someone stepping in, i looked over my shoulder and see the cutie i always popped a Boner so i got hard in an instand..but at this moment aware about my selfe i was giving a shit what he might think about me i was tired of lying to myselfe so i continued my buissnes rock hard.
I was rinsing of as i could feel someone is standing behind me,i looked back over my shoulder and there he was wet and naked and rock hard as i am. He grabed me and pulled me close to him, he started to kiss my neck caring my breast and playing with my dick, and i enjoyed it i could feel his boner in my Crack and i was ready to go much further with him. becuse in this moment i was truly for the fist time in my god damn live feeling who i am.
After that there was no point in hiding anymore i was really giving a shit what people might say and i was coming out.
first to my sister and she just sayed " well bro.....this is nothing new. I knew it already" and she was true as a boy i was allready poping boners when i have seen a cute boy.
My mom was more difficult as i told her that im Gay she sayed to me i wish i had never born you, that hurts a lot so i blocked her number and cut the wires.
And i think the point of my story is here. Be like you are, live is to short to mess around, it can be over in a blink. I learned it the hard way, and if people can't accept you like you are, cut the wires they are not worth it. My sister is still in my back with all her support and for that i lover her. My mom is still not talking with me since seven years now it is some kind of sad yes but to be honest i give a shit. Because its my live and i live it like i want to.
thats why i can undersand zack in this game i was like him, hiding myselfe and im glad its over.
but how about a translation into German, if you guys wish to i can try it but it is a hard nut to chew on and it will need time because i allready looked into it and its a freaking lot of text to translate. let me know if you are down for that.
It sucks to see such sad experiences. I guess I never actually had sad experiences because I mostly identified with the straight boys, I just happened to like dudes at the same time. However, a lot of those interests were genuine and still are and I kinda like that about me. The downside is that the sexuality was in complete odds with the normal way that I acted--people never knew-- and those that I tell usually joke and say "prove it" because it's just nothing most people would ever guess about me. In some regards, that makes the process even harder (for me anyway). I do agree that you need to surround yourself with positive people. The older I get, the less I care for appearances and pretending to be something that I'm not. Time is finite and I choose to spend it with people that are more important to me. That's a hard transition to make, like you said, but it feels more important with the passing days
omg, congrats man, how does it feel to be finally out? how I wish I was
This game is so amazing to me because it shows of what could be if i had control when and how i came out. I'm just gonna say this that nobody and i mean nobody should pressure you to come out and you have the decision when to do it that is comfortable for you(obviously there are some people who are scared and maybe becomes to having internalized homophobia but that's a different discussion)
My coming out story was definitely something that should be avoided but unfortunately the adults that were involved were idiots and insensitive. So In High school I was still having the in the closet phase but i already knew i liked boys ever since Elementary. I had this one friend who i told i had a dream about the guy that we were kissing and then obviously high school drama she told it to my crushes best friend and he told my crush and this whole thing happened he started to avoid me and when we do interact he was rude and eventually i resulted into i like him while also hating him and i vandalized my chair out of spite saying "I hate (Crush name)" So obviously my teacher saw this and immediately went to the principal and thus i was suspended so i understood i was suspended because of vandalizing but what i don't understand is why do they need to fucking explain the reason to my parents why i wrote that(by this point everyone already knew that i had a crush on this guy even the teachers and principal knew because why not, the students in my school were literally a gossip blog waiting to happen) so they did that i didn't really had any choice and they told my parents basically i was gay and like this whole thing happened with my parents which made me so uncomfortable not only because i wasn't the one to say to come out but also my parent were extremely religious and this whole bullshit conversation about how its hard being the way i am(yeah no shit but so is life so literally no difference) and my uncle was the same thing i was and he resulted to becoming paralyzed and then died because of stress(yeah uh can't you tell were different people and if he died because of stress then can't you tell you are doing the same thing?)
So tl:dr YOU AND ONLY YOU SHOULD HAVE THE POWER TO COME OUT ON YOUR OWN AND SHOULD ONLY DO IT WHEN YOU ARE COMFORTABLE
ps... AND ALSO MAKE SURE YOU HAVE FRIENDS THAT WILL SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHAT BECAUSE I'M TELLING YOU NOT EVERY PARENT WILL, BLOOD MAY BE THICKER THAN WATER BUT BLOOD IS SOMETHING THAT YOU ALREADY HAVE AND WATER IS SOMETHING YOU NEED TO SURVIVE AND LIVE
First, i want to say I'm sorry about your experience. I wish there was a way that we could all have control over things like this but sadly that isn't the case. Some people are malicious and others are far too aloof to realize the potential damage in accidently busting someone out.
The game is designed as you say. It's not the way to come out but it's depicting a way to slowly come out. It's also designed to help connect the dots between things that don't make sense or ways that people can perpetuate their own homophobia internally and shows potential ways to mitigate that--to slowly work towards your own level of acceptance or understanding of that. This will not be everyone's story. A lot of Zack's connections and philosophical rants are my own and how I connected the dots. I write it to reinforce it in myself and I write it in the hopes that it will help others that have struggled with their own fight of acceptance. I do wish you the best in your journey. I can't promise you that your own journey with be without obstacles; but I will say that mine has and is getting better and for that reason alone, I'm optimistic for you <3
new update means the continuation right o_o
correct. New updates will always be a continuation of the story for now. Once the game is completed (in probably 2 more updates) then future updates will go back to add things and redo the beginning part. Basically polish things up and add a lot of the stuff i had to skip back in the day
ok so i downloaded the recent one and when i get to the part i almost cried on (when Braden walks into the new dorm surprising Zack) it still says to be continued and then ends it
Yep, that's the end of the current build. I'm working on things from there. The new update, when it comes out, will pick up right there with a new chapter...one last chapter
ok thx i thought it was some wrong i cant wait tho
wait quick question, theres only one route in this right? or is there more?
One major story with 2 different perspectives based on the choice you make to touch or not. That decision sends subtle shockwaves out throughout the story that fundamentally change the tone. Specifically the last update (second half of chapter 9) is very different
This, this game is great. I honestly didn't realize how invested I was until the end and I got all emotional. But I seriously can't wait until the next chapter. Very good job and thanks for such a great story!
Thank you soooo much. It's nice to hit people in the feels (although sometimes i feel guilty for it )
I finished this game last week and it legit gave me a lot to think about. I came out to a few friends in high school and a few more in college. I later came out to my parents b4 graduating and there are still some challenges. This story is a great blend of the coming out experience, a strong bond between friends and the struggles faced due to society being so determined to label or judge. So many are pushed into situations just because they are told they have to follow a certain path and they end up neglecting their own path as a result. I study mental health and I think this game is a great game for those who feel like no one understands their struggle. This game is full of passion, laughs and something to just make you see beyond the misery of the world. There are good people out there to form strong bonds with so never give up the fight to find them. To those who are struggling, you are not alone no matter how often it feels that way.
I appreciate this and I'm glad the purpose of the story really resonated with you. I always appreciate comments from those people in the mental health field because it was always meant to be a tool. It's an odd way to reach an audience but there's definitely a market in this genre for people who have struggled and I thought this was a solid way to reach them.
Well I think you did a wonderful job and I'm looking forward to reading the rest of the story. I'm sharing the story with friends in hopes of it connecting with them in its own way. We all have our story to tell and I think your story hits a variety of angles to make people think. Mental health is all about working through thoughts in a healthy manner. We can't run from our concerns all the time so it's important to face them in a constructive and beneficial manner
I agree and I do appreciate you sharing it with others. May stimulate some dialogue (or healthy banter 'cause that's how I am with my friends ) :P
😄honestly those are probably some of the best convos. Especially when it's friends who aren't afraid to ask or answer the real sensitive questions. That's how you know you're comfortable around each other
agreed
Honestly whole game was amazing up uptil end of chapter 9, i know its the story about Braden and Zack but i cant get over that there wasnt any option after what happened at the gym with Braden, I mean i personally wouldnt just get over something so big so quickly and it just makes me furious, anyway too bad we dont get to have room with Jordyn, he seemed like a fun guy.
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Appreciate the comment although I feel kinda bad that you seem to have missed the entire point of that powerful exchange and the communication between the two characters.
One important thing to note here is that your "fury" should be directed back at your own choice in the game. In the route you chose (pervy in this case it seems), Zack never wanted to do what you chose to have him do. He even says as much right after you make the choice to touch Braden ( he states that it's almost like someone else made the choice for him). He actually fights back against the player's choice and expresses guilty throughout the game once that choice is made. However, the assumption here is that the player was ok with that choice because you had three separate occasions to shut it down. In return, I wanted to flip this upside-down on the players that chose to play this for solely pervy reasons and have them essentially get masterfully outsmarted by the person they chose to creep on. However, Braden was never meant to be a villain. I saw the player's choice of pervy/respect as a choice on what you actually wanted Braden to be--not Zack. Regardless of your choice here, the assumption was that you can't be furious with the characters because you're the hand that made them do that in the first place and they both obviously felt terrible about it--hence their discussion and subsequent promise to never speak about it again.
The discussion is also really important here because i wanted a template for relationships to actually talk about heavy shit in a healthy manner. Media is inundated with reality TV and dysfunction. I wanted to show a positive way for people to express strong and hurt feelings. While they're both initially pissed off, the exchange has them settle down. They listen to each other objectively because, in the end, they both fucked up, and I believe in healthy relationships, you dont need to keep score on who fucked up more. You talk things out and you try to see if you can pick up the pieces together or not. That exchange was about acceptance, forgiveness, and moving forward despite mistakes they were both truly sorry for.
Well I didnt think my choice back there would have consequences since none appeared in like 2 chapters, so i didnt bother thinking about right or wrong, but still what Zack did was nothing comparing to what Braden did, I mean yea that was pervy but man comparing what Braden did, Zack was a saint at that point. But what frustrates me even more is the whole thing when Zack lied about his GF and Braden heard it, and then made entire charade about how he cant trust Zack because of something this small, yet he was basically manipulating Zack the whole time, sure he didnt mean it in bad way but it isnt pleasant feeling when you know you ve been toyed with and played like you re some kind of tool, kinda makes you feel dumb.
I suppose i could be somewhat confrontational (gently so in this case) but if you didn't think about the consequences about Zack's choice then, why would you expect Braden to? Braden even specifically says it started out small. How many things in our lives start out as a small lie or stretch of the truth, only to continue to accumulate and become a leviathan of lies. At some point, we have to shut those down and the bigger the lie becomes, the harder it gets to shut down--or to even find a smooth way to shut it down.
There's also a ton of truth in how frustrated we can become with others when they essentially wrong us in the same way we do them. It could also be projection from Braden. To me, there's about a million reasons why Braden could react the way he did. It's a dilemma and because of that, it was avoided and it festered as most things that are avoided do and I wanted to show that things can fester with good people that originally had honest intentions. To me, that exchange is way more complex than just a comparison of who did what worse
I attmid i feel sorry for Braden, He figured out that Zack is attracted in him and just wanna know how far this goes, so he try's to lure zack out of his Snailhousing. But soon Braden develope feelings for Zack he dosn't knew he is able to, and get trapped in his own snowball. i just can imagine what a torture it is. and i don't wanna spoiler so at the end of carpter 9 i cried like a little kid this story got me really bad because anyhow i can understand both. and i'm looking forward for the next chapters because would like to see how this guys become even closer (wink) they are made for each other. Anyway both ends are supperior (hope i wrote this word right....guess not but you know what i mean) becuse both endings will send your emotions on a rollercoaster.
Well i dont agree with your view, i have my own views on the situation, still amazing work. Also, I loved your quotes at the end of each chapter, were they from some book? because if they werent, u ve got some talent, those were amazing.
nah, it's me. the quotes are from the game itself. I basically preview each chapter with a random out of context quote that happens somewhere in the reading so then you get to sorta wait until it pops up to see what it really meant
Until 2 days ago I didn't even know that VN existed, and I had the inmense luck that my first :) has been this one I loved it and read it in 2 days and I felt very touched You can feel that it has been written by good persons and so I have not hesitated to contributing right away in patreon Thank you!! and looking forward for the next chapter
Thank you so much for the contribution. I'm honored that you chose this as your first VN although it's probably not the best example of the traditional use of the genre. Sorta started off doing my own thing with this and it just went from there. I'm glad it became something different though. I appreciate the note and the support. More to come !
Hold up I almost cried at the end that was addictive beautiful and just weirdly great the ending though was built different I literally almost cried with happy tears when I saw Braden
glad things are hitting you in the feels. that always means a lot cause i let myself go to really emotional places when i write this. always glad when it hits :)
I think you should be a rewarded if u made me cry just for me reading a novel I mean wow around of applause!!!!!
but not gonna lie that hit rit at home when it was like been trying to hide my sexuality for years and been acting straight forever im bi/curiou
that's part of what i'm trying to accomplish here. just sorta make a template for the process and normalize that it's not quite as easy as just blurting out to the world that your bi or gay or whatever. there's a process there and sometimes that's really freaking hard for some people to connect those dots
just finished ch9 and omg i loved it, Codi i think that is his name i loved him in his underwear lol, i cant wait for updates, btw sorry for not paying anything im broke this month but next month im so going to contribute i think im in love lol
yo, no worries. seriously. this game is free for a reason and I run on donations only. Even the feedback is meaningful to me and i appreciate that. Glad you're in love. Stay tuned. next month i'm switching this project to my main job so i'm getting serious with it so hopefully that only improves things. Appreciate the support but dont short yourself <3